The End

 The end is here - at least for 2020.

So many memes today about how the world seems to be ready to kick this year to the curb:

*Don't let the door hit you where the good Lord split ya

*Peace out, get out

and on and on.

They are hilarious and right on trend. I'm ready for the year to be done. I'm tired, weary, constantly under this overarching presence of fear, concern, worry, etc. Some days are great, some are not - and that's true in any year. But in the middle of a global pandemic where the sides of science and news and politics and emotions collide faster than I can keep up? Yea, that's where I chime in and agree with the adieu of the year.

I did make every attempt - twice - to focus my energy and spirits on things I was grateful for. Even when Hank died of this nasty virus. Even when I gave up trips and vacations...hugs and hand holding...when it took me to lows I didn't like experiencing. I tried to be grateful.

Perspective is good - like I have a warm home, plenty of food (or toilet paper!), access to funds and resources and high speed internet. 

But I also vocalized this year that just because I have perspective doesn't mean I am not allowed to be sad or bummed or depressed. I can honor that - and then hopefully put my big girl pants back on and keep moving.

(Great song: Move (Keep Walkin') by Toby Mac...

I know your heart been broke again
I know your prayers ain't been answered yet
I know you're feeling like you got nothing left
Well, lift your head, it ain't over yet, ain't over yet, so

Keep walkin', soldier keep movin' on)

So I keep moving. 

My word for 2021 is Forward. Keep moving forward. A heart rooted in forgiveness does not dwell in the past. Easier said than done, but perspective, gratitude and forward motion might make for a good way to greet a new year.

Many things went awry this year. Many things got cancelled or postponed or forgotten.

But love didn't - neither did kindness or compassion - certainly empathy and gratitude - those didn't go astray.

So when I watched the In Memoriam and said good-bye - I made sure to watch the triumphs that we still collectively shared.

And when the ball will drop - with nary a soul around on the ground - I'll still shout out Happy New Year and greet a new start.